Last year, before JC life started proper, we had this seminar thing which the facilitators made us pick our priorities in life. I was selfish then, so I picked some selfish priorities. While many picked family, religion and integrity, I picked things like Ambition, Knowledge and I sorta forgot wat the last one was (guess it wasn't all that important). I can't really say I am a selfless person now, I am still selfish, anyone who knows me can attest to that. But what I know is that my priorities in life has changed.

When you meet new people, their philosophies, their thinking, will affect you. The better you know someone the greater that effect. The past year had been a long period of knowing. Of course, many of you reading my blog already have someone in mind. I guess I cannot deny that, but everyone should know that my life is more than just one or two persons. I guess I have come to care about more people than I did back when I was in secondary school. I don't know why yet, but apparently this "caring" has diminished my ambition.

A part of me lament my loss of ambition, after all, it was what drove me to do things, and to persevere. But there exists this other part of me that is growing to fill up the gap. I found more reasons to strive, my driving force is not just blind ambition anymore, it actually feels more purposeful now than ever before.

As for knowledge, none of that changed. I am still learning, and I won't ever stop.

Oh and one more thing, I sorta realised that we all tend to compromise in different ways, and I don't think one way is higher in virtue then the other. Sacrifice and change cannot be arranged in any order or hierarchy. I have been doing quite a lot of sacrificing. But maybe I should be doing a little more changing from now on.